Edithh

2011-12-25T01:39:00.001+08:00

Hah,, It's Christmas. Merry Christmas, and after xmas is his bdae. Ha, Well, i've been trying hard to forget k. Anyw , it's xmas, and its a day to be happy , yet my tears keep coming down instead of a smile on my face. Cool huh, idk why also. Ha, and , grats to ppl who find their happiness. As for me, i won't , i don't deserve it anyway. Hahah. don't worry, ' i'm very happy '.
Bye.

2011-12-19T03:49:00.002+08:00

Saturday:
Okay, lets talk about saturday, it's a stupid day for me. Because i did something very stupid and ...
Okay so , woke up early in da morning. Then, whole family went to lot one shopping mall for burger king.
And without checking the website or whatever shit. I actually told them, oh , cck have bk la. Very confirm one. And in the mrt, *next stops chua chu kang*. I suddenly , OH SHIT. Burger king jurong point then have, why the hell did i think that cck have it too? And i told them, ohwell , i get a good scolding and i actually cried.. LOL. And imagine how stupid i'm. My grandma leg hurts, no strength, because of my ' very confirm ' , make her have to walk all the way to cck. And i feel so damn bad , like seriously. I didn't really meant to.. Thn, went to do the doraemon quiz, because lot one have the doraemon show. And do the colouring, it's suppose to be my 3yrs old nephew colouring. In the end , i'm the one colouring, i'm so young. -.- Thn , went to 5th floor, watch the doraemon show, omg, damn cute please. The doraemon so short :l. Thn took photo with them :)
After that cousin went united square, cause nephew want to watch thomas and friends. My cousin so poor thing yo. LOL. Thn went home, wanted to play computer. Ohya , it's occupied ONCE AGAIN. So nvm , it's okay. And i went wraping sweets for my mum. And after she know i'm helping her, not even a thankyou . Yet i'm scolded for other things. Wow cool. -.- . Then, wait for someone, and off to sleep.

Sunday:
First of all .HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO MY DEAREST GRANDMOTHER :D
She's amazing okay! Okay. Am supposed to woke up 8am. In the end , i couldn't. So i woke up at 10.30am? Rush to bath, and off to Sakura Internation buffet. Well, my cousin husband drove us there, aw so good of him. Then, we ate alot. 11am - 2.30pm. I eat until i'm bloated like hell. Then went home, My cousin(s), aunt, bro and me, we started playing monopoly deal. There's a round damn funny man. My aunt use 2 deal breaker on me and my cousin, so she will win already. BUT GUESS WHAT. BOTH OF US AT THE SAME TIME .HAHAAHA JUST SAY NO . She like WTF , WALAOOO LOOL. I high 5 with my cousins and we laugh like mad LOL. Okay la, play with family is like FUN. DAMN FUN LOL. So funny siol , i win right, then they was like OI , JUST SAY NO LA LOL, I say WHAT , YOU NO CARD LOL. They say , nvm , i use my mouth say can already. Damn funny la LOL. Thn , went arcade , because my dog seriously very noisy , keep on barking like there's no tomorrow. So , went to arcade. And blablabla'.
Went home at 11.30pm. Ate mac . Reach home , play maple until now LOL. Just now i found my uniform LOL , like wow , heng. Then i went to iron it, and so , later just wear can already. God dammit. How? I don't dare to take my results. I can already think about what will happen after all. I will like, cry . Sad, crazy.
Got the urge to die. Confirm 100%. Well, i'm gonna decide like ... I've no idea okay. Let's see.

And ohya , because of yst, i was damn worried, and today suddenly, my forehead got one pimple.
Nose got 2 BIG pimple, make until my nose damn red. I'm also not the xmas rudolph. .LOL .Thn , on top of my lips got one pimple. Fuck , damn pain. I'm so kelian. :( Too stressed already. Just one day , pimple all pop out. Wth :( . Well , i think i shall go sleep already. I'm getting headache. Tsk.
Nights people (:

2011-12-16T02:17:00.001+08:00

2011-12-16T02:11:00.001+08:00

2011-12-09T23:31:00.001+08:00

Today went to work ,

I damn tired today , eyes going close ._.

Thn the teacher there say ,

you look like you're going to sleep LOL.

Really tired uh ..

Tml and sun also got work. T_T.

2011-12-09T01:00:00.001+08:00

勉强是没有幸福的,如果你爱的人不爱你, 那是没办法的事,你只能祝福他,希望他能找到属于自己的幸福 :)

2011-12-08T15:39:00.001+08:00

If you need someone right there for you, text me or call me, i'll be there.

Here i'm ,

Once again .

I'm torn into pieces.

Can't deny it ,

Can't pretend ,

Thought you were the one .

Broken up, deep inside ,

Cause you won't get to see the tears i cry ,

Behind these hazel eyes .

2011-12-07T23:07:00.001+08:00

I still remember you said , try not to love you .
Yeah , i'm trying hard .
I give myself 1 month to forget my feelings to you.
If i can, we stay as friends forever.
But if i can't , then i will love you until the day you love me.
Fair enough ?
I shall stop texting you ba , i think you also wouldn't
wanna see my name appear on your phone right ? :)
Bye tail.

2011-12-07T20:50:00.001+08:00

I damn sad uh , went msia yst , i scared i receive msg but idk,

so i didn't put flight mode.

Then reach singapore , my phone all jitao sot.

Everything crash -.- ,

Messages gone , fb crash , twitter crash .

I redownloaded everything.

Thn my phone right , last time even if i didn't on wifi ,

the internet can use de.

Now, when i'm outside , no wifi , cannot use fb .

Wtf -_- " ?

My phone sucks. SERIOUSLY.

-faint- , i'm very sad luh.

Every bad things all happen at one time.

I seriously , very tired alr.

2011-12-06T08:44:00.001+08:00

I swear i already tried not to miss you.

Do you know, everywhere i go , the first person,

i think of is you?

Don't ask me why, i had no idea alr.

It;s like, i just wanna be with you.

Even if i know it's impossible.

Even if you don't like me, it's okay :)

Don't force yourself to like me kay ?

As long as you're happy, i'm happy enough.

So don't torture yourself.

And seriously, if you find me annoying,

because i keep on texting you :/

You gonna tell me okay?

I rather be friends, also don't want you to hate me.

Thanks alot.

Imy .

2011-12-02T23:00:00.001+08:00

Went to rebond my hair :) It's not messy anymore.

And i'm thinking how to go to sleep ,

because my hair not straight alr T_T

Now tired die , also dont dare go sleep LOL.

And , i'm quite happy uh :B .

Shhh , secret . LOL .

Cya !

2011-12-01T19:37:00.001+08:00

I only need you . I don't need other guys . Seriously..

Ah , today another lifeless day.

Sleep till 2pm+ , play blackshot , hoho.

I ranked up again :)

And yst , he say something , i v happy :B

LOL . And i realised , tml i have to work -.-

2011-11-30T19:42:00.001+08:00

I played the new map , thn i lag , and i kena stuck outside .

THN SOMEMORE I CAN KILL PPL .

HAHA , EVE AND ME WAS LIKE

EH , KILL , GO KILL LOL.

2011-11-29T22:08:00.002+08:00

Tsk. Today really did nothing . Wanted to go reborn hair , but mum's friend never work . So , i morning wake up do housechores , thn went back to sleep . 4pm wake up again , watch Mnet Asian Music Awards , thn now , i don't know what to do . Thn tml Eve coming house . Sorry to tingrui , promise to watch movie with you , other day can ? ._. "

2011-11-28T23:47:00.002+08:00

Went snow city with Evelyn , Melduen and Gerald !

IT HAS BEEN A LONG TIME SINCE WE GO OUT TGT .

LIKE DAMN SERIOUSLY !

Kay , i've alot of fun kay. Photos ?

Wait LOL . Next time i upload kay :)

And , i now very sad, my heart v sad.

Don't ask me why.

I think because i read comics , those story are like ...

2011-11-28T08:54:00.000+08:00

Will update when i'm back later .. :)

2011-11-25T22:01:00.002+08:00

I guess i've no courage.

But you actually knew.

Went to give out flyers today also , then reach home , played audi w dear. And blackshot, fullstop.

2011-11-24T21:32:00.003+08:00

Went to give flyers , thn reach home , play audition with mel and then blackshot. Then mum's back , can't use comp alr T_T. I think i going sleep soon. And watching the 9pm show , sad die.

Idiot qiao er , go copy the yu hong lyrics -.- ! LOL , Kay , bye.

2011-11-24T02:57:00.001+08:00

If you decides to leave , can i follow behind ?

Days pass so fast. And i didn't realised.

2011-11-23T15:26:00.001+08:00

For those waiting for me ,

please , don't waste your time .

Go find someone better than me :)

Nowdays , i've been eating only dinner .

Idk why , somehow , i feel like dying .

Sigh.

2011-11-23T08:50:00.001+08:00

I'm happy at today 1.33am. Because , you texted me ._. !

2011-11-22T21:45:00.001+08:00

Went to meet deardear at 1plus ! Then , meet kirby and his friend? Thn go watch 23:59 . Kay , boring show LOL . I almost fall asleep ._. Thn , went checkpoint play lan. Fcuk , waste money. THE COMP SERIOUSLY CMI, MY COMP ALSO BETTER THAN THEM -.- LOL. We went for donations sia. TSK.

2011-11-22T08:28:00.004+08:00

Let bring back memories. I know you when i'm p5 or p6. We used to meet and go playground play, of course , not only you and me :) Thn, you and my good sister stead. Sec 1 , i was shocked to see you in SBC , knowing that we're in the same CCA and same jersey number . This makes me happy like seriously . And if you asked me why , i also don't know why . When someone says your name , my heart is like beating so damn fast ! And i start to stalk you in facebook , sometimes only . I just felt happy when i see you , when people say your name , i smile . I thought all this was because , we didn't met for so long , that's why im happy to see you once again . But maybe i was wrong . I try to think that , not because of love . So i totally throw you one side , and ignored . Then , this year , we contact again . You and your friends celebrate my birthday w me . You never know , actually when you're beside me , i'm happy die . But my face shows an emo look . Lol . And , i starts to think of you , which i don't really wanted to . Suddenly , you're just all i'm thinking . I'm trying to text other people , see if i could fall for others , because i don't want to fall for you . You're a great friend and i don't want to lose you . So i text whole day w other guys , and all i get was nothing . When i saw your text pop up in my phone , i smile like an idiot . Don't ask my why , because i've no idea . I'm trying so hard not to fall for you . But you already know i fall for you ya ? I'm glad that you act like you didn't know . Thanks alot . Because all i want was to be friends . Saw your facebook post yesterday , and when i saw that , sec 1 you've a crush on someone , i don't know why , i'm so depressed . Maybe or maybe not . You still like her . Ha .

Friends can last longer than lovers .

Don't you think so ? :)

Just let it be .

If it's meant to be yours .

It's yours .

If it's not , i've to just accept realty .

2011-11-21T22:46:00.001+08:00

I'm forever not good enough.

I'm a crybaby. Everytime i watch show or drama , i sure cry.

2011-11-21T11:57:00.000+08:00

Even if i told you why ,

you wouldn't care.

2011-11-21T11:30:00.000+08:00

Went to give flyers at 7am.

Apple is sick, so i'm all alone.

Then, went fuchun pri, and woodlands pri.

After that, went blk 173 , slack there.

Then home.

Going sleep soon.

2011-11-21T06:58:00.001+08:00

I keep on telling myself, missing you is just an excuses.

But like seriously, why are you keep appearing on my mind?

2011-11-20T22:36:00.002+08:00

Wish you were here.

Went to work as usual. Thn after work , went home bathe and went to yishun golden village. HAPPYFEET2. NICE MOVIE, I SWEAR. LOL. :) Thn arcade, play guns games and ddr with brother. Tomorrow going give out flyers. Tsk.

2011-11-20T03:17:00.005+08:00

I realized that every time when i liked someone. They won't liked me back. It's not their problem, it's me. I'm not good enough for them. I somehow tired of love already. I keep thinking about him, but the only solution that i can do is, keep telling myself that, we're just friends. good friends, we'll never be more than friends and that's for sure. Unless he gain interest in me, or fall for me. If not, things are impossible. But it's okay, really okay. As long as he don't avoid me, i'm happy enough. I should be grateful. Because him, avoided me. At least, not another one trying to push me to hell. Thanks seriously for treating me as a friend. I'm happy as long as you are.

2011-11-20T03:14:00.005+08:00

Sometimes i really wonder ,

do i even stand a little chance?

2011-11-19T23:42:00.004+08:00

Today went to work , almost late eh.

rush like mad.

Thn went to work ,

and after work , went home bathe.

Thn went jp w family.

TML LEH, WATCHING HAPPYFEET2. WEE.

AND idk why, i miss him.

Whats wrong w me .

2011-11-18T22:38:00.001+08:00

I hope we're that close.

I want to change blogskin eh , but i forgotten how.

Nvm , just stay the way it is.

Anyw , i had a fun day on wednesday ,

lan till 5am plus :) Song bo.

Thn , eat mac , home.

Well , we didnt talk much ,

im trying real hard not to love him.

Trying v hard to be JUST friends :)

Anyw , today , apple acc me go give flyers.

3girls , snatch my business :(

Thn , after that go work , today actually never work at tuition centre.

But since , i forgot , everyone forgot , lessons as usual LOL.

Ohwell , and how come ,

the blogger , the box > become blue. LOOOOL.

Kay la , bye.

2011-11-11T15:21:00.001+08:00

10.11.11

Im sleeping , i dream about a stupid thing. I kena chase by alot of gangsters , all take knife want kill me. Thn i keep run and run and hide. Because of the dream , i woke up at 3plus , TORTURING DREAM PLEASE . LOL.

2011-11-11T14:50:00.003+08:00

Sun 6/11/11.

Today, woke up early in the morning , thn do housechores, and went back to sleep at 11am. 12pm , cousin came , nephew woke me up :( Thn , i woke up. Pack things , and leave house to msia. Mygod, custom long queue like ... thn, go in city square walkwalk, finally 10pm. We go and take coach bus to genting. Thn , fk sia. The bus uncle or whoever, ask me 'where's your ticket' ? He shouted in a rude manner, like as if i didnt bought like this. My family all sibei dulan. Lol. Thn i tried to sleep in the bus. Looking outside the windows , think alot things, thn managed to cry to sleep. Thn 1hour later, kena woke up to go toilet break -.- LOL. kay BYE !

Mon 7/11/11.

Morning 5am plus reach, go eat. Thn go kids corner and rest there. Mum, cousins all go casino. Left my bro, nephew and me there. Thn, my nephew keep cry and say he want mummy, daddy. I bring him outside the casino and wait for 3hours. He sleep on my lap, until my leg cramp. LOL. Boring sia. Should have stayed at home lor. Thn go shopshop in the afternoon, thn went back to hotel. Keep raining. I dont think tml will be able to go outdoor theme park. Sad, thats my purpose of coming, yet it rain continuous. Now , in hotel , bored die. Bro sleeping, i watching tv lor. Sigh, the other adults are all in casino.. thn 12am plus , adults came back. We went to watch midnight movie. ' Sleep Walker ' . Thn 1.30 start , my mother go check in the room in first world hotel so we can rest awhile. Cause her bdae , so she got a free room. And it's at 6floor corner room. We took the lift , the moment we step in the lift got a weird feeling. 1st floor , lift stop , cause got ppl . 2nd floor , stop cause got ppl also. Thn 3rd floor stop , we thought its normal cause got ppl , thn when lift open, my bro thought got ppl , he say sorry , going up . We look out , no PPL WHAT . SCARED DIE. thn 4th floor stop also .. No ppl at all . 5th floor , also . Thn 6th floor , open , we walk to our room . So eerie please. Who knows , Who pressed the lift, when there's no people .. Thn we act like nothing. We knock the door , and went in , so eerie , mayb because it's 12am + ? LOL. Thn my cousin was lying on the bed, she move and on tv , thn the bed suddenly got few strains of hair. Just now when come in , i check the bed , nothing one -.- . Then im quite scared but act normal. thn , my mum kick until nail , and she couldnt find it. wthh -_- . Thn once we reach downstairs, we talk alot about the room , in the room better don't talk ma , so we talk downstairs. Thn my mum go check out the room , she demand another room , but the person say , thats the only room left. My mum damn dulan , she say , oh , so thats because no room alr , thats why give her the corner room. And my mum say the room is damn not right. The person still can reply say , ' mdm , what do you mean by not right ' , her face expression damn weird . Thn my mum throw the card at her , and went off and say , idw that room anymore ! . Thn go watch our movie , i dont dare sit corner LOL . Thn continuous rain 2days, . and im hoping tml wont rain , Sigh. going sleep , already 5am. nights.

Tue and Wed 8&9/11/11.

Morning mum woke me up, i damn tired. Thn she say , not raining alr! Going outdoor theme park , i was damn tired because i slept only 3hours , so i say idw go , and went back to sleep lol .I prefer sleeping than playing. Thn my cousin , bro and me all 11am plus wake up , after that all wanted to go karaoke. It's close , so we went to eat pizza. After that shop awhile and go bowling. After 6pm plus right , the bowling will GLOW IN THE DARK . DAMN COLD MAN . I love the atmosphere ! The musics damn lous and got lights shining around. Thn everything glow in the dark , especially white clothes. LOL. Damn fun uh , thn 10plus , go arcade play pump pro, and other games. Thn mum and me went to lan at 12am plus , I saw blackshot, thats the reason why im so desperate to go in play. In the end , blackshot error , keep can't play -.- Thn i played audi , Now in hotel , all adults went casino. Im trying to find things to do , damn bored please . Already 4.30am alr !

Wed 9/11/11.

Well , wake up at 11.45am , check out hotel , go play arcade. Thn now in mac, waiting adults come back , thn 2.30 going take coach bus to singapore. In bus keep eat LOL . Thn 9plus 10, reach home :)

2011-11-02T18:08:00.002+08:00

How change the blogskin ah LOL.

To those nicenice one.
Fml, totally forgotten.

HOSEHBO.

2011-11-02T12:48:00.001+08:00

The adelyn news has been spreading like mad.

3 words for her ,

SHE DESERVE IT.

Dao somemore loh, now karma hit you.

2011-10-19T09:14:00.000+08:00

So lets see. How long has my blog been dead?

Since no one came here.

Why should i bother to post ?

ARGH.

2011-09-17T23:00:00.000+08:00

Now , i wonder.

Do i still in love with him, or with the memories.

2011-08-14T18:18:00.001+08:00

Everything's gone .

Idw either one of us get hurts . Goodbye .

2011-07-27T20:10:00.000+08:00

Im sorry for not posting aye.

Don't see the reason , why should i post.

Well , anyway .

Today met huns :)

See ya again soon !

Thn saw uncle chan eh ! HAHA .

2011-07-21T19:30:00.001+08:00

Yeah man .

I'm tired after a day well .

And i miss going out with TOU FU AND WEI BA EH !

When want meet up eh dumb ? LOL .

I don't think i can go CHC already .

Since my parent dont allow also .

Hm ,

i finally finish doing my DNT .

WOW , happy die please :) !

Okay , i just try to not let my blog dead -.-.

Bye ~

2011-07-15T00:37:00.003+08:00

Its like going 1month alr , i didnt post .
I'm lazy , well as usual .

I try to update everyday if i can okay .

Well , Me and him ,

from strangers become friends .

from friends , become strangers now again .

3years pass so fast . My happiness with him ,

has gone .

Sigh , thanks to my mind .

Well , i'm v lazy to post .

Unhappiness troubles me .

I'm sick and tired .

2011-06-17T22:48:00.002+08:00

Totally slack off eh , didnt even bother to update . Yeah , i cried alot today , i swear .

Playing audition , i'm so quiet , becos i'm crying . Like i said , i couldn't control my tears falling down , if i could , thn that will be the best. But sorry , i couldn't . Yeah , i asked myself , when was the last time i really really laugh my lungs out , when ? Idk , i've a conflict of emotions i guess . In my life , for 16years , i always dont get what i wanted . Yes , always okay . Not even by chance , fcuk my life . I seriously wondering , why should i even exist in this earth ? Exist to suffer isn't it ? :)

I cried and cried , what else can i even do ? Cry ? When slzy ask me , i really over him already ? Actually i'm still suspecting my own answer , i did right ? Did i ? Idk seriously , i seriously dont know how am i feeling , i seriously dk what is feeling anymore . Haven even started a relationship , and yet getting hurt like fcuk . Tell me , if you're hurt and hurt , would you even want to start a r/s ? I'm sick , i'm seriously going crazy . I seriously dk what to do . I just feel like , maybe dying is the only solution and answer to all my questions . Is it really worth it ? Maybe ? idk .

I'm sick and tired .

Cant i just have someone that truly love me ,

and even willing to sacrifice for me ?

And i love him , he love me , this kind of r/s .

Forever wouldn't exist to me yeah ?

Its okay . I'm all by myself .

I can't even accept myself , the looks , the ability , the knowledge i've .

I'm such a failure.

2011-06-14T22:08:00.001+08:00

Never had a dream come true .

2011-05-30T14:02:00.001+08:00

All i ever wanted was for you to know .

Friday ,
i had a great day . Like seriously , damn fun .

Sat ,
rot at home , market , rot , blackshot .

Sun ,
went kbox w aunt and godma , bought shorts .
And went home blackshot , thn rot .

2011-05-20T17:31:00.002+08:00

Today take back few results .
Thn obviously the score ..
Ohwell . Thn i was recording my marks ,
in my phone . And , teacher confiscated .
Thn when everyone's gone .
I went to the teacher , and than ,
she return me , cause she say i'm really recording .
Thn , i suddenly cry ._.
Thn the teacher shocked LOL .
Thn she started comforting me .
Well , she's actually quite a good teacher :D .
Ohwell .
Byee .

2011-05-19T22:30:00.001+08:00

I want to be with you .

Today , school per normal .
As expected . I got badly .
Ohya , Dnt , kena stayed for 30mins.
And Chenxu went home already :(
We wanted to go amk and buy KOI .
But well , it's okay :) .
Tomorrow hm , idk eh .
Dismissal at 12.25pm .
Tired die .
Cant go .
Sian die .
Go and die .
LOL .

2011-05-18T22:43:00.002+08:00

I miss when you're far away .

I miss when you didnt called me .

I miss your voice .

I miss meeting you .

I miss stoning w you tgt .

I miss the times where you're by my side .

I miss your everything .

You know why when i'm with you ,

i dont talk ? Because ,

even if it's silence , i just wish to be by your side .

but you ?

You dont give a damn .

Im okay .

2011-05-17T22:27:00.001+08:00

Today , meet aiai ,
went to somewhere ,
and jp , then ,
meet dearest :D
She funny die uh ,
thn chatchat , walkwalk ,
thn went home .
A tiring day , now i'm tired .
Yet , family problem . Sian die . == .

2011-05-16T23:04:00.001+08:00

2011-05-16T15:10:00.001+08:00

Today damn boring please .
Heng got chenxu accompany whole day ,
if not i think i'll bored die .
Well , tomorrow no school .
HAHA . Good .
Just now wanted to meet Aiai ,
but she's not at home ,
hp off . Thn i went home ba .
LOL . Kay , bye .

2011-05-15T23:34:00.002+08:00

FML .

2011-05-15T22:02:00.002+08:00

Blackshot whole day eh ,
until my hand breaking alr .
I headache whole day still can play bs (Y) LOL .
Going to sleep early , tomorrow school per normal .
When i'm back i'll continue bs kay ?
Audi uh , i dont feel like on-ing eh .
Maybe i tell ahma , i mia in audi ba .
Alrights , i'm sad . LOL .
Bye .

2011-05-15T02:34:00.000+08:00

2011-05-14T13:33:00.005+08:00

Seriously , what the fuck you guys want from me .

Play computer , scold .
Never play computer , scold .
Cook for you , scold .
Never cook , scold .
Wake up early , scold .
Never wake up early , scold .
Go buy for you , scold .
Never buy , scold .
Go out , scold .
Never go out , scold .
Bathe , scold .
Never bathe , scold .
Do housechores , scold .
Never do housechores , scold .
Brother's fault , scold .
Not my fault , scold .
Eat outside , scold .
Eat in room , scold .
Never iron my clothes , scold .
Iron my clothes , scold .
Vent all the anger to me ?
When it actually , none of my fault ?
Wow , amazing .
I on the tv volume 16 , my brother say loud .
Knnb , nnb la . I off until 9 , hear sai ?
You think i can hear a single thing sibo ?
Then my brother complain , my mother scold me .
Wow , gang up ? I see .
Whats the point of a family ?
Its only me , the only one kena scolded .
What is this man .

2011-05-12T22:52:00.000+08:00

Sorry , i forgot , you dont give a damn .

Well , today , morning wake up do housechores ,
went back to sleep at 10am+ ,
and woke up at 2pm + ,
Whole day playing comp , audi , bs .
Tomorrow last exam ; Physics .
I srsly don't have the mood to study at all .
Sigh , and somehow , i'm lazy to go out tomorrow eh .
Should i go with them ? ..
Cause mayb i can't go also . Lol .
Well , watching manga ,
the story is v nice , how i hope i'm like the girl .
Ohwell , Bye .

2011-05-11T17:05:00.003+08:00

I wish you were here .

Today exams per normal , went to school ,
end at 10plus , took bus with chenxu .
Wa , she make me laugh die eh ._.
Then walk to mrt tgt , and i went home .
Wanted to play audi , but i was too tired ,
i lie on my bed , and fall asleep -.-
Then woke up at 4plus , thn i was like , OMG .
When did i fall asleep :( .
Er , so , Yayy . Tomorrow i've no exams :D .
Friday thn have uh , can relax ._.
I was still thinking , whether friday want go play water ,
with mel and eve anot . But i'm not sure if i can go ?
LOL . Well . I hope 27 may i'm free .
Ohwell , its someone birthday ah . HAHA . :D .
Kay , Byee .

2011-05-10T20:07:00.003+08:00

爱你是孤单的心事，不懂你微笑的意思。

Yesterday i slept at 3am , today woke up at 5am (Y) .
I didn't studied a single thing , then i was like omg . DEAD !
Went to school , the weather is killing me .
Then , when doing chemistry , i keep almost fall asleep ._.
Ohwell , tomorrow is DNT , i haven studied yet . Later i guess :)
Sigh . Bye .

2011-05-09T09:40:00.001+08:00

If you could read my mind , things wouldn't be the way it is now .

I'm too afraid to speak .

Because you're the only one i treasured .

2011-05-09T00:38:00.001+08:00

Dedicated to my DEAREST .

I hope to see you smile again like you always did :)

2011-05-08T23:50:00.000+08:00

我只想对着天空轻轻的呼吸，寻找我最爱的人到底在哪里。

2011-05-08T22:34:00.003+08:00

Counting down for my birthday : 23 days . ( Any presents for me ? )

Yesterday , went to Tpy central ; Favvors to eat dinner . Ohwell , i'm so sorry if i'm rude to say that , their service attitude sucks , and the food seriously taste bad , some is okay . But , i had a worst dinner . Ohwell ? Then , went to take a walk . Queue up for KOI , thn went to Yakun to take a seat . Ohya ! Bought a T-shirt , it's my birthday gift from Christina Jiejie :) . And $10 ; from Cynthia Jiejie ^^ . Thanks ah , I feel so bad , i didn't bought gifts for you guys ! :( . Ohkay , then went to walkwalk around , while my grandma , brother , mother went home taking Taxi . Then , we take mrt home :) . The weather is damn hot eh . Then , went home uh . Reach home , watching tv , the election yeah .

Today , woke up quite late , went shopping for groceries , and watched Carebear . I'm so tired . Ohya , i haven studied yet . Give up already . Sigh . Bye uh .

2011-05-06T21:20:00.000+08:00

What should i do ..

I really becoming not myself .
Idk how i'm feeling right now .
Should i be sad ? Happy ? Or what ?
Idk .

2011-05-05T15:45:00.000+08:00

If boys can flirt around , why can't girls do the same ?

2011-05-05T15:27:00.002+08:00

I always thought that tiongxim is a good thing .
But i realised , nothing lasted .
Everything would end one day , it's just that sometimes it's last longer .
I hate to give out all my real feelings to audi anymore .
I won't do it again .
If you all want to force me to be a flirter .
I will , if it won't hurt me .
I hate getting hurt and hurt once again .
I hate it .
I had enough .

2011-05-02T23:42:00.001+08:00

Maybe this is wishful thinking .
Probably mindless dreaming .
If we loved again , i swear i'd love you right .
I'd go back in time and change it but i can't .

2011-05-02T23:41:00.002+08:00

Yesterday , i've a great time w my Cousin .
Even though we don't meet often , but she's always my cousins (L) .
Even if we felt awkward , but there's still topics somehow .
I miss her , and she's forever a good cousin ^^ .
Hope to meet up again soon , and play ! :D

2011-04-30T00:47:00.002+08:00

Ohgod . I'm becoming lazy to update anymore . Because no one visits my blog too . Okay , i swear i hate myself lots . I don't think i'm pretty but the opposite .
Today , Social studies and MT paper 1 . Finally SS exams is done ! Next is Geo sia . Going to study like mad again . Sigh . Life like this . What can i do . Sian ttm man . Alright . Bye .

I may not be perfect , and i never will .

2011-04-22T19:51:00.002+08:00

Finally finish watching love buffet .
I knew the ending i would cry .
Oh well , i really did LOL .
I cried alot in this show .
The show is nice seriously :)

Hais , exams coming . Sian .

2011-04-21T22:36:00.000+08:00

I don't know what i'm thinking seriously .
What can i do , to follow my heart . I seriously tired .
Somemore exams is coming , what if i failed everything ? What a bad thing .
Sigh .

2011-04-21T02:08:00.001+08:00

Before I close my eyes for the last time .

I wish to tell you I love you .

In your embrace, don't wish to let go .

In my heart, thousands of words I have yet to tell you .

I used all my strength to keep my eyes from closing .

After this farewell, there will be no more meetings,

no more can I be by your side .

But please don't forget .

You promised me you will live on as well as you can .

I'm leaving first, leaving for a faraway place .

I won't be able to watch the sunrise with you anymore .

I won't be able to wait for dawn .

Erasing all the memories, is not an easy thing .

But life & death are predestined, don't be too sad .

2011-04-21T02:07:00.000+08:00

散場的擁抱混亂的心跳

多寧願只是爭吵還能道歉和好

我知道妳留著和他所有合照

明明面前是答案卻撕掉不要

2011-04-19T02:01:00.002+08:00

到底什么是爱，多么希望有人能够告诉我。

我现在不知道自己是喜欢谁。
我还喜欢这他吗?

静怡啊，真的是一个笨蛋。

2011-04-18T01:19:00.001+08:00

I was stoning . and the boiling water spilled on my hand . It hurts more than i thought . Now , im enduring the pain , its so painful . Its like that time , im in 7-11 , and the cup of noodles , spilled on my hand , the pain , the feeling is the same as now . And theres leave a scar . Who knows , another scar coming . Now , i only felt that , my hand is burning . What a feeling . Pain , as i know im not in my dream land . Everything is reality . .

2011-04-14T21:26:00.003+08:00

If you love something let it go . If it comes back to you , it's yours . If it doesn't , it never was .

2011-04-14T20:55:00.002+08:00

I finally made a choice to let you go :) I won't sad for you anymore . We shall just stay friends ba . My mistake for falling for you . Well , love is uncontrollable . Don't worry , i will forget all my feelings to you , it will one day . I will meet my another half one day , i just hope that , i love him , he love me . Happiness don't come to me always . So i'll wait , wait until the day , that a person could actually made me laugh , made me smile , make me doesn't have to think about anyt . No stress , no sad . Hah , well . :)

2011-04-11T23:48:00.000+08:00

I've lots of things to say to him , but i just can't say anyt out . Sigh .

2011-04-09T10:04:00.001+08:00

You know ? i'm tired . Sometimes i just hope that i would die in a car accident . or get some illiness or even a good family will do . What i do is always wrong . What is right than ? My life sucks ttm . I really hope that i could die . And disappear in this world . Or even erase all my memories . I don't want to live like this . I'm sad and tired and crying all day long . Can you imagine how i'm living now ? With a problems family . And problems in everything . Sometimes you just hope you die , and you don't have to care anything .

2011-03-25T15:15:00.003+08:00

Is my blog dead >? Hahah .
Today had career day .
After that , i went home first .

Hmm , i cried yesterday when i was w Aiai ,
idk why o.o .
LOOL , okay , he knows i like him already ,
but why do i keep have the feeling he will avoid me ..
I think too much ba . :)

Hope we will stay the way it is ,
like we always did .
:)

2011-03-16T20:33:00.002+08:00

There comes a time in life when you've to let go of all the pointless drama ,
and the people who create it and surround yourself ,
with people who make you laugh so hard that you forget ,
the bad and focus solely on the good .
After all , life is too short to be anything but happy .

2011-03-16T20:25:00.003+08:00

Special thanks to ~VINNIEx3 , Shayne_ , ~Bee
AND MOST SPECIALLY :
~xCONTRADICT AND ~Tristezza .
They made me laugh like mad today .

DEYDEYDEY . LOOL .
I srsly can't tahan the song ' Diet ' .
LAUGHS .
okay , bye :)

2011-03-13T12:03:00.002+08:00

You know that feeling ...
When you look at him and think ..
Wow , i love him but we're just friends , or maybe ,
when he looks at her it hurts so much sometimes .
When your in love with him and he's in love with her .
You love everything about him and he loves everything about her .
You wasted all your 11:11 wishes on him .
You kept it in for so long , no one knows how confused it was .
Do you tell him you like him ?
Or do you keep it in , as usual ?
IT'S CONFUSING .
Or " it's complicated " is your answer when someone ,
asks you whats wrong . When you look at them together ,
your eyes fill up with tears . Because you love him .
You love him so much and sometimes ,
you just wish that he knew (L) .

2011-03-13T00:05:00.002+08:00

I just can't stop myself to not text him even just one day .
And it actually make me sad when he don't even want to reply .
And why am i waiting ? Idk . WHY ? IDK !
Its just like , i'm waiting for one day that he will actually like me .
But , well , the day never comes i think .

Ohwell ,
i actually quite enjoy today ,
it's my aunt birthday , and i made a card from her .
The best sentence i wrote and i love it is ' HOORAY FOR GETTING OLDER ' LOL .
ahahah , laughdieme .
AND , Today saw Vanessa , i miss her :)
Hope to really meet up soon ? LOL .

2011-03-09T23:26:00.001+08:00

Moving on is simple ,
it's what you leave behind that makes it so difficult .

2011-03-09T23:25:00.001+08:00

Yayy ! Today i bought the Suju-M disc ,
Ohwell , who got Kyuhyun Photocard ? Change w me :/
Hee . Ohmy , i haven done CDP ?
So grats to me alright .
I'm spamming lots of emotional words in my facebook .
Some kind of bored that's why .
Not because i'm emo .
but some it actually fits my mood now . :D
Alright bye .

2011-03-07T01:20:00.003+08:00

So near yet so far .
So happy yet so sad .
So angry yet so emo .
So crazy yet so hatred .

You know what ? I'm trying not to emo ,
because you hate it .
Trying very hard , but things still go the same .
Nothing changes , and i'm disappointed enough .
By just looking at the comp screen ,
i can even see you and her .
Tears just welled up in my eyes , when i don't want to .
You know , oh well , you'll never know .
I rejected so many people , just to wait for you to realised .
And you , i think never will .
I wonder how your reaction will be , if you know that i like you .
I think if you know already , the things won't go the same as it's now .
It's sure a big change , and you will start avoiding me .
Thats what always happen to me , as i said .
You will be the last people i ever like , i meant what i say .
Remember it ? I guess you've forgotten .
Alright , i just feel so sad at this moment ,
i never felt so sad before , i guess , i just bottled everything in my heart .
Let the time cure it .
I'm tired , yet i can't go to sleep .
What is this man .
Why the fuck am i sad for ?
Why the fuck am i worried for him ?
Why the fuck am i exist in this world ?

Seriously . Fuck my life .
Let's see how long can i endure ,
before my life ends .

2011-03-05T20:12:00.001+08:00

HE LIED TO ME ,
MAKE ME HAPPY AND SAD .

Hais , okay , today morning ,
went to stadium and run w aiai and friends .
Then , after that , went home ,
played audi awhile ,
went to aiai house and sleep .
Then go cwp . ahah .
Ate mac burger , thanks to teacher for the coupon .
1 for 1 , so good xD .
hahas , i go rest alr . bb .

-Tearloves .

2011-03-05T01:01:00.003+08:00

I'm terribly sorry if i hurt you .

It's not that idw to give you a chance ,
actually is because , i really can't forget someone .
You deserve better person , but thats definitely not me .
Idk you to waste your time on me .
I like you , but that is like friendship kind ,
but my feelings to him is , i love him .
I treated you as a friend ,
a friend that jokes ,
a friend that anyt i could tell ,
a friend that i could text when i'm bored ,
a friend that would make me laugh ,
i don't want things to change ,
so lets just be friends alright ?

I'm sorry .

2011-03-03T20:04:00.003+08:00

Why am i keep thinking of you ?

Has my blog dead already ? No right ? :(

Yeah i think it's . Laughs . Hmm alright , so what should i post ? I'm getting lazy each day just to post already . How ? I've alot to post , but i'm just freaking lazy . Alrights , today in school , free period . Hallie accompany me to chat , if not i guess i had already die of boredom . Then , after school , went to meet aiai yeah , heehee .

Hmm , so 2 person know my secret already . Eh wait , isit two ? Yeah i think so . EH WAIT . NO IS THREE . LOL . Okay , three is enough , no more people shall know okay -.-

I want to go out , i'm bored staying at home . Hais , okay bye yeah (:

I try my best to update okay ? Takecare .

-Tearloves ; xiaokiss .

2011-02-22T20:32:00.002+08:00

Don't make me fall in love w you more each day ,
you might joke w your words , but to me , i treat it srsly .

Tired die ,
muscles ache everywhere .__.
then my maths test , i got 0 , pro right ._.
First time . what a SHOCCCCKKK *_* .
LOL .

2011-02-20T14:47:00.002+08:00

Should i really wait for him ? Yes , i should .

It has been 5 days since i updated right ?
It seems that , no one is viewing ,
thats why i'm lazy to post either .
LOL , yst went out w aiai ,
watch movie (:
How i wish at night i could go out ,
hais , well , obviously , it's impossible .
Okay , bye then .

2011-02-15T22:22:00.002+08:00

Yesterday ,Valentine's day .
Celebrate tgt w my Aiai ,
we've lots of laughter and fun .
(: Then just now meet her also .
And her friends ,
laughdieme , it's so fun :D
Okayy byebye .
Tml got match ,
wish us goodluck (:

2011-02-12T23:54:00.002+08:00

你到底懂不懂啊 ?

如果你不喜欢我，
就不要对我那么好。
你一时的同情，
只会造成我更大的伤害。

2011-02-12T13:26:00.003+08:00

YOU DON'T KNOW THE PAIN I HAVE ,
SO DON'T THINK THAT YOU KNOW ME WELL !

These few days v sians .
Yes , seriously .
Text lesser and lesser ,
don't feel like talking also .
What happen to me .
-_- "

I just feel like i'm going to be a " Ya ba " soon .
Alrights . bye .

2011-02-07T23:36:00.000+08:00

Am i falling for you ? Idk .

2011-02-06T00:11:00.001+08:00

Imy ..

2011-02-04T23:51:00.001+08:00

HAPPY NEW YEAR EVERYONE .
BE HAPPY !

Even through , i'm not happy .

2011-02-01T01:00:00.002+08:00

Do you know the feeling of waiting ?

I just getting lazy each day ,
to post my blog . Yeah , blames who ?

Alrights , quite addicted to a manga ,
i actually cried alot of times , it's damn touching srsly .
The manga is " Kyou , Koi Wo Hajimemasu "
Yeah , freaking nice .
Alrights , tomorrow have DNT ,
so just wish me goodluck , because i hasn't studied any .
So , just pray T_T .
Alrights , bye !

2011-01-29T01:44:00.001+08:00

Everyday same things go on ,

Why have family problem ?
All cause by you .
I've enough , i'm sick and tired of all these .
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2011-01-25T23:08:00.000+08:00

I'm v happy today , the happiness that cannot be replayed .

11:11pm now , Make a wish everyone . (L) .